Moon day

Sev took me to task today for my sour mood. He has tasked me to write it out in its entirety and then show him the page. Here follows my obedience.

My mood started yesterday and did not lift with rest. This morning I restrained my temper and related to the children recent history of the Empire and its conquests. At lunch, Sev noticed my silence and questioned it.

“I’m quite certain,” I said, “That nothing could possibly be wrong.”

“Lady wife, if something is wrong, you must tell me.”

I replied, “I feel certain that you will do as you think best.”

It was rude to speak so familiarly in front of the children. Sev stood, and taking my hand in his, he took me from the table into the other room.

He wrapped his arms around my waist, and guided me to rest my head against his breast.

“Lady wife,” he said, “I have been patient with you these past months, and I have done what is best for you in every instance. You have needed this time to adjust your thinking, but-”

Here he paused, sighing.

“You need now to accept this and move on. It’s time to put your mood aside and be my helpmeet. I have need of you, and it is not the time to slide back down into the wells of your mind and be lost. Neither you nor I have that luxury at this time.”

“Have I been so terrible as all that?” I asked.

“Lady wife,” Sev laughed, “You have been a horror.”

I was struck dumb by that, because it was just like him to say such a thing.

“I want you to go and teach the children and make me something nice for dinner,” Sev instructed me. “This evening, if you would, please write on this. I should like to see your thoughts.”

“Yes, my lord husband.”

My thoughts on this are varied, but in essence I am agreeable. Sliding into silence and self-imposed isolation is not something that I wish to become a habit. I shall endeavor to be less self-indulgent.

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Showing that to Sev was quite uncomfortable. He kissed me and commented, “Your writing is rather more critical than you allow yourself normally. I like it.”

Comments (5)

llubnekMay 28th, 2009 at 4:28 am

“He has tasked me to write it out in its entirity and then show him the page.”

“entirity” should be “entirety”

“It’s time to put your mood aside and be my helpmeet.”

“helpmeet” is actually a word (though my spellcheck says otherwise), but it seems to arise solely from a misinterpretation of the phrase “an help meet for him” in Genesis 2:18. A quick search with google reveals mostly religious sites with a fondness for archaic sounding phrases.

“helpmate” may be more appropriate and has almost exactly the same definition, but either is correct and “helpmeet”, though less common in secular works, is not entirely out of place.

adminMay 28th, 2009 at 12:14 pm

Fixed entirety.

Given that both Sev and Suki come from religious backgrounds in a very strong patriarchy, I think a religious-connotations word is not too out of place.

_geist_September 22nd, 2009 at 5:00 pm

I find myself strangely disappointed that Sev got to read Suki’s journal, even a little bit.

adminSeptember 22nd, 2009 at 5:30 pm

I’d like the journal to exist outside the world, as it were, but it makes more sense for it to exist inside the world and have some small mention. Since the first book is burned, though, no one in the world is going to read the whole thing end to end.

K KJanuary 12th, 2012 at 10:49 pm

“Since the first book is burned, though, no one in the world is going to read the whole thing end to end.”

Except us, your dear privileged readers! 😉

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